Sunday, April 3, 2011

More sorrow for sin

Conference again. I'd decided at a previous conference to avoid the Temple and Conference Center grounds between sessions because of the eye candy that awaited there, and the impression it made on me--which sounds like I'm a passive victim...rephrase, "the impression I invited it to have on me"--and the resulting actions I sometimes took. So I stuck to my guns this time around, as well. Except that I had to go give tickets to somebody across the street in the standby line. So I made a break for it. As I hustled across the Fergie dressalike competition that in truth was the Conference Center plaza (not failing to inventory the killer kalves showcased by the ever-shorter hemlines abounding everywhere despite the lingering snowy winter weather, but really considering pulling out my phonecam), I felt ashamed of those past actions, like a pervert destined to someday become a lonely, dirty, old pervert.

Back inside, as the Meganacle filled for the afternoon session, I again noted the disproportionately high concentration of generally stunning legs under generally very short skirts down in the VIP section toward the front, an area cordoned off from the unwashed masses and reserved for sundry dignitaries like the families of the GAs.

I normally can't sit through an entire Richard Scott talk. The clinically compassionate, imploring tone, coupled with the gradual zoom camera action that begins at normal framewidth but by the end of the speech shows only the bridge of his nose as he begs you to repent, stirs an intolerable sense of guilt in my soul. But today's was for some reason different. I assessed myself against his checklist of marital unity, and found that I failed on every single count except for physical infidelity. But I listened. I may have even learned.

The Robbins talk (cutesy Hamlet intro notwithstanding) on raising children was outstanding. And the choir's closing number was spot-on, but it's that damned old C.S. Lewis conundrum of loathing the sin but not wanting to kill the red lizard altogether.

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